[no garry... he sounds like a sad gilbert... except not on truly depressed gilbert levels. He wants to immediately suggest that they should do lunch every week... or at least come around to visit more often, but what Garry says next twists in Oz's gut.]
...I need to tell you something. [now or never] During what happened this month... I was in the prison, Garry. And I was with Ib. ...I promised her that I'd look after her for you.
[steadily getting faster] But then everyone started rioting and it caught me off-guard, and I must have lost her during the chaos because I didn't see her. Not even when I went back -- I couldn't find her.
And I'm sorry, Garry. I'm so sorry... [garry and ib were one of oz's oldest acquaintances, now that most of the others were gone. they had been inseparable to Oz, who knew how it felt to be separated, but it wasn't fair. Oz's done this before, he can deal with it, but it's not fair to Garry and Ib who were never thrown into Abysses and forced to live years apart]
[ this is not what Garry was expecting. As far as he was concerned, Ib had always been his responsibility; he'd looked after her like an older brother or even a surrogate father. In the beginning, it had been precisely because there was no one else who would. They were all that the other had, and it had been that way even before they arrived in Haven.
So hearing Oz apologize for not taking care of her takes him completely by surprise. ]
Oz... [ for a moment, he's quiet, not sure what to say. ] ... It's not your fault. But... thank you for caring.
[it’s not what Oz had expected either. Not because he thought Garry would yell or hate him or punish him for this, but because expecting things like that has been ingrained in him ever since he was young. Being hated for things he accidentally did…]
I... [he doesn’t argue it, he accepts it with a rush of relief that he wishes he wasn’t at the liberty to feel because it’s wrong isn’t it. Instead, he’s quiet in return. He could say a dozen things, but he knows nothing can quite help that feeling when someone disappears. He casts about for something else to say and remembers] Ib’s... really strong. She must have been frightened, but she didn’t let that stop her at all.
[ he's not sure whether talking about her makes him feel better or simply makes the pain of separation worse. There's a stiff, aching feeling in his chest as Oz praises her - half pride, half sorrow. Garry takes a moment or two before responding. ]
... Yes. She's always been that way. Since the time we met, always... She's a lot stronger than me.
[ seeing her lose her spark towards the end, give up hope, had hurt more than anything. ]
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...I need to tell you something. [now or never] During what happened this month... I was in the prison, Garry. And I was with Ib. ...I promised her that I'd look after her for you.
[steadily getting faster] But then everyone started rioting and it caught me off-guard, and I must have lost her during the chaos because I didn't see her. Not even when I went back -- I couldn't find her.
And I'm sorry, Garry. I'm so sorry... [garry and ib were one of oz's oldest acquaintances, now that most of the others were gone. they had been inseparable to Oz, who knew how it felt to be separated, but it wasn't fair. Oz's done this before, he can deal with it, but it's not fair to Garry and Ib who were never thrown into Abysses and forced to live years apart]
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So hearing Oz apologize for not taking care of her takes him completely by surprise. ]
Oz... [ for a moment, he's quiet, not sure what to say. ] ... It's not your fault. But... thank you for caring.
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I... [he doesn’t argue it, he accepts it with a rush of relief that he wishes he wasn’t at the liberty to feel because it’s wrong isn’t it. Instead, he’s quiet in return. He could say a dozen things, but he knows nothing can quite help that feeling when someone disappears. He casts about for something else to say and remembers] Ib’s... really strong. She must have been frightened, but she didn’t let that stop her at all.
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... Yes. She's always been that way. Since the time we met, always... She's a lot stronger than me.
[ seeing her lose her spark towards the end, give up hope, had hurt more than anything. ]