[At least Garry has his priorities straight, unlike Diva??
It's a fairly uneventful few minutes, minus the few occasions where she jumps into the air to leap over a few thicker groups of tunnel beasts, but this still doesn't seem to be difficult for her. She's not breathing any differently as if she were taking a leisurely walk, and she's just smiling pleasantly like she's enjoying the company. She's a strange girl.
It takes a little less than ten minutes, but the stop seems very sudden as they're at the steps of the subway on Haven North's side. It's also like the wind catches up with them, since there's a powerful backdraft that mostly just displaces her long hair. She'll take care of that in a moment, but she just crouches slightly so that Garry can put his feet on the ground and stand.]
[ it would be awkward, but he's afraid and she's concentrating, so the time passes relatively quickly, Garry spending much of it clinging tightly to Diva, eyes closed, hoping he's not flying into death's door here.
Unfortunately, having his eyes closed makes the sudden stop that much more sudden, and his heart practically flies out of his chest. Half a scared shout makes its way out of his mouth before he realizes that she's stopped on purpose to put him down, and they're actually at the end. He stumbles back to dry ground, clutching the front of his shirt nervously. It actually wasn't so bad, but for some reason, it still felt like an ordeal. Not quite ready to put his life in Diva's hands for that long yet, perhaps... or he's just a big baby. Both equally plausible. ]
W... We're really there. I can't believe it. [ he looks back towards her, quite obviously trying to look less spooked than he is. ] It took hours on foot... Y-you're really something.
[But Diva doesn't really give him time to regain his breath, grabbing his hand and starting to pull him along towards...whatever she decided she wanted to come over here for.]
But now we can have fun, right? There's not really anything here to worry about, so you can relax!
Hold on just a second -- [ he tries to protest being dragged along so suddenly, but what's the point? She hasn't listened to him thus far... Garry tags along, exasperated.
And even though she says that, Garry doesn't like it much in Haven North, either. It's so empty. He thought it would be more comfortable, but, just like last time he was here, he finds himself with a strange sense of unease; it's a little bit muted by having a powerful 'bodyguard' with him, but not much. ]
I hope you're right. [ a pause. ] Say, can I ask you a question?
[Since he doesn't protest (much) to being dragged along, she soon lets go of his hands so that she can properly lead the way. Though at his question, she looks back towards him again with a curious expression.]
[Luckily, Diva isn't really offended or bothered at all by explaining her biology, so she just nods, speaking matter-of-factly]
Mm, sort of! They glow is a better way to describe it. I never remember the really detailed explanation, but you know how animals' eyes kind of shine in the dark? It's a lot like that, except they only change when I have a lot of adrne— Wait, that's not it... [She murmurs a few attempts at the world quietly before she comes up with the right one.] —adrenaline. It only happens when I have a lot of that in my blood.
I-is that it? I couldn't help but wonder. [ at least she's not also a cyborg / possessed / other possible b-movie monster explanation. Garry steps up his pace a bit to try and walk beside her instead of behind her; he's warily glancing around at the buildings as he does so. ] I think that I had more adrenaline in my blood than you did, though.
[Diva ducks her head quickly, and the conversation lapses into another awkward silence, but this one at least isn't as long. She sounds very reluctant to admit it, but it's also clear that she's embarrassed, of all things.]
I— I don't actually know what it is. So I don't know what you mean.
You don't know... [ he looks over her to see if she's serious, and... she's totally serious. And embarrassed about it? Come to think of it, she'd been a little bit this way when they talked about genetics, too... It was almost charming, somehow, even though the mental reminder that she was a vampire and a killer wasn't too far from the forefront of his mind, considering that trip through the tunnel in mere minutes. She was a killer, to be sure, but this expression she was making now was a part of who she was too, right?
Garry actually offers her a friendly smile for what might be the first time, despite still feeling a little harassed from that tunnel transportation. ] Well, that's fine! You are from another time, after all. I'm no scientist, but I think adrenaline is a sort of chemical your body produces when it's using up lots of energy, whether you're running or just nervous.
[She straightens proudly like she's trying to play off her ignorance, but for a moment, something visibly troubled crosses her face at "scientist." It's brief, so it would be easily missed if he wasn't looking right at her, but it's still there. Her eyes turn to her hands instead, like she might be able to see what he's explaining. There's a lightly thoughtful noise that follows his explanation, and she nods.]
I guess that would make sense, then.
[Diva can remember those experiments a bit more distinctly than others, since it had taken more effort on Joel and Amshel's part to actively provoke the reaction. By the time they had discovered it, she had already lost most of her sense of pain. It was especially brutal things that had to cause her eyes to light up, only to be plucked right out of its socket.
And it makes her laugh, remembering that. She looks ahead with a little smile, deciding that it might be a fun little piece of information to share. It wasn't like she saw any threat in revealing it to Garry. Though really, she was deciding to open that door just a crack for the sake of seeing his reaction.]
It's what Amshel told me, so it's usually easy to repeat like I know. Well, now I know, so I won't have to worry about it anymore. But I guess they couldn't just look at my blood for that back then, so they actually took it out to dissect it. [She laughs] It was pretty gross!
Garry almost stops in his tracks, shooting her a horrified look. How can she just casually drop something like that into conversation?! So much for her 'normal girl' side... ]
W-what?! Diva, what are you saying? Someone dissected your eyes?! That's absolutely horrific!!
[ part of him wonders if she's just trying to rile him up, but her expression - the lack of eye contact - makes him doubt that she's teasing. ]
[ 'just one' didnt make it any better at all, and he was certainly less than excited about her 'secret story.' Did he want to hear it? God knows what other gory tidbit she was about to tell him, especially since she hadn't explained at all what led to her having her eyeball plucked out.
But if she was opening up to him, it was on him to listen. That was what being a friend meant... Were they even friends? This trip sort of felt like something friends would do together, but he was struggling to accept the fact that he'd befriended a murderer. Isn't this exactly what he said he wouldn't do? ]
[Though she teases about the story with a playful, if malicious, lightheartedness, that sense doesn't carry as she tells it. Though it's something distant now, through time and a conscious decision, it's still something painful and unfair. She can't keep her eyes on him as she explains, so she lightly turns her back to him again.]
I was born without a name. I didn't have a name at all until I had already been alive for fifty years, because what I was supposed to be, it doesn't need a name.
[There's a light pause there as she shifts to clasp her hands behind her back.]
Because I told you, right? A Chiropteran isn't something supernatural or anything. We're another species, so when a curious scientist finds a new species, they want to learn about it. And since there was my twin sister and I, she was the one chosen to live normally as a control, but I was the one that was locked up in a tower so that they could find out everything there was to know about a Chiropteran. And it's something enchanting to humans, because we hold the secret of immortality.
So everything terrible you can think of, I know it really well! Cutting off my arms and legs and letting them float in a tub full of blood to watch how they'd reattach. Opening me up in a way that doesn't kill me so that they can watch my heart beat, and then carefully move them one by one to see what's necessary. Injecting me with human diseases to see how I would react, even though it would usually just kill me slowly and over and over again, because even if I can regenerate from anything, what gets rid of diseases isn't much different, I guess.
[She tilts her head thoughtfully] But you get used to those things. I don't remember what it's like to feel pain like that, because I never knew what it was like to feel anything else. But being trapped in a tiny room without anything but chains to keep me there, and always slowly dying and wishing that maybe the next time, I would wake up... You never get used to that. I was just an animal that they were keeping alive so that they could keep doing their experiments.
[She looks back to Garry, smiling pleasantly]
So you know, it's funny that humans are so afraid of me. They're the ones that can be the real monsters.
[ Whatever he was expecting her to say, this certainly went beyond it. Garry listens, following behind her as he wrings his hands nervously, still a little winded from that trip through the tunnel, and learns, heart slowly sinking as she continues. It might be guilt that he's feeling somewhere in the general sense of horror; a conflicted little bud of guilt growing towards this murderer before him, but if anyone was going to empathize with a killer, it might as well be him, gentle, timid, bleeding-heart Garry.
It would be easy to snap out and defend humans here, saying that, well, she'd killed so many of them anyway, of course they're afraid of her; if this had been neared to when they'd first met, he might have done just that. But he can't just look at her and see a monster now - especially when she'd just spilled her guts out in front of him. And because part of him knows that she's right. Beyond this specific instance, in spite of his general optimism, he knows that humans have caused almost all the pain in the world that he knows. Diva just happened to live to tell about it. ]
... Diva... So that's why... [ he wonders why she's telling him this. he's nothing special, himself, and he can't even really think of how to reply; he's just shocked, looking on at her with -- pity? Apology? ] ... Nobody deserves that, human or not. I'm sorry. I... I'm not sure what you want me to say, and I know it probably doesn't mean much coming from me, but... I would say that you're right. They were the monsters. Not you.
[ Ah. The pity and apology seems to make her uncomfortable, since as soon as she sees that expression, she's looking straight ahead again, her shoulders turned in just slightly. It's uncomfortable to have it viewed as something sad, because that would mean she should be giving it more weight. ]
You don't have to say anything. Because I've told you, it just means that I like you.
[ There's a pause, since she's not addressing anything he's said, really. ] Because without knowing that, you can't know me at all. That's what I mean.
[ There she goes again. It would probably be simpler if she just acted like a killer all the time instead of this, but nothing is ever black and white. Such is life. ]
W -- Well, I can't just say nothing to something like that...! [ he picks up his pace a little bit, jogging up to walk beside her, if a little bit anxiously. ] There's a lot more to your story than I thought there was when we first spoke. You know, I can't forgive the things you said you did... But I don't have to define you by them, either. After all, I don't exactly have a clean record, myself.
[ And now that he'll be able to see her face, she just looks awkward and uncertain. It's not quite as bad now, since she's already had this conversation with Abel, but it's still strange to hear a person actually considering her, not as a Chiropteran, not as some kind of mystery to be unraveled, but as a person. ]
Um... [ But still, it's hard to talk much more about it without slipping out of her comfort zone, so she looks to him with a curious expression and tone instead. ] What do you mean by that? What have you done?
Er... [ that last part had just sort of slipped out unbidden - as he'd admitted himself, he didn't know what to say in reply to her story - and now he'd gone and put himself on the spot. Anyone would ask about it, after a lead like that...
Well, she'd gone and told him what she'd done. Maybe it was time for him to own up to this. It wasn't that he'd believed he'd acted wrongly at that time; in fact, he doesn't think there was anything else he could have done. But it didn't change what happened then. ]
... If I tell you, you have to promise to keep it between you and me, all right? It's a very personal matter.
[ sighing, Garry takes a second to put this into words, running a hand through his scruffy hair. It would be the first time he'd actually talked about what had happened at the end then - even he and Ib hadn't really discussed it. ]
Well... Just a little while before I got stuck here, I was stuck somewhere else, you see... A really terrible art gallery. At least, it looked like one. That's where I met Ib. [ he sticks his hands in his pockets. ] The gallery was full of these violent creatures and awful little games and puzzles, but if we wanted to get out, we had to go through them all. But the truth is that there was another little girl there... if you can call her that. She was just a painting like all the other monsters there, really, and she dragged us to her world so that she would have "friends," I think. In the end, though, once we learned her secret, I guess she decided it would be easier just to kill us.
[ it's hard to tell if his vagueness is real uncertainty or an attempt to couch what he did. Either way, it looks like it's his turn to just keep his gaze forward. ] ... And she really would have killed the two of us, right there in that gallery! So -- I had to do it first. To protect Ib, I had to... stop her. I burned her up. And we did get out afterwards.
[ As he tells the story, Diva gets more interested, her eyes really lighting up in wonder at the story. It's a moment where her childish nature comes through the strongest, since she was so enraptured with stories, especially the fairytale-like or fantastical ones. A gallery of violence is something beautiful and wonderful in her mind, and she almost presses him for more details about that, since his actions don't really strike her as anything interesting.
(Though, later, if she thinks about the little painting's side of the story instead of just Garry's, she might find her story sympathetic.)
To her, it's perfectly reasonable. You kill something that tries to kill you. It's a basic rule of life, and humans were really the only ones to try and deny it. But she knows to not say such a thing, so she nods lightly in understanding. ]
Well, that's the only thing there was to do. I guess you feel bad because you're a gentle person, but... [ Diva pauses and looks to him before she adds: ] But if you're protecting yourself, and someone else too, then you do what you have to. Isn't that a pretty brave thing to do?
[ that was about the reaction he predicted from her, and he's not sure if he feels better or worse for it. Well, it was probably good to talk about that, even if it was with a maneating vampire... Probably. Garry looks a little uncertain for a few moments, in spite of her positive answer. ]
Maybe. [ It was definitely the right thing to do, he told himself, but that didn't make it a good thing. Maybe she wasn't a human and she was trying to kill him, but she was also a lonely little girl, whether he liked it or not. What a familiar dilemma... ]
... But don't sound surprised. I can be pretty brave when it counts, you know!
[ She laughs warmly as she takes hold of his arm again. ]
Oh, excuse me! I didn't really mean to, but it's still hard imagining when I've only seen you as being pretty skittish... But I'll believe you! I'm sure you have a brave, chivalrous knight somewhere in you!
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It's a fairly uneventful few minutes, minus the few occasions where she jumps into the air to leap over a few thicker groups of tunnel beasts, but this still doesn't seem to be difficult for her. She's not breathing any differently as if she were taking a leisurely walk, and she's just smiling pleasantly like she's enjoying the company. She's a strange girl.
It takes a little less than ten minutes, but the stop seems very sudden as they're at the steps of the subway on Haven North's side. It's also like the wind catches up with them, since there's a powerful backdraft that mostly just displaces her long hair. She'll take care of that in a moment, but she just crouches slightly so that Garry can put his feet on the ground and stand.]
See? It's not so bad.
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Unfortunately, having his eyes closed makes the sudden stop that much more sudden, and his heart practically flies out of his chest. Half a scared shout makes its way out of his mouth before he realizes that she's stopped on purpose to put him down, and they're actually at the end. He stumbles back to dry ground, clutching the front of his shirt nervously. It actually wasn't so bad, but for some reason, it still felt like an ordeal. Not quite ready to put his life in Diva's hands for that long yet, perhaps... or he's just a big baby. Both equally plausible. ]
W... We're really there. I can't believe it. [ he looks back towards her, quite obviously trying to look less spooked than he is. ] It took hours on foot... Y-you're really something.
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[But Diva doesn't really give him time to regain his breath, grabbing his hand and starting to pull him along towards...whatever she decided she wanted to come over here for.]
But now we can have fun, right? There's not really anything here to worry about, so you can relax!
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And even though she says that, Garry doesn't like it much in Haven North, either. It's so empty. He thought it would be more comfortable, but, just like last time he was here, he finds himself with a strange sense of unease; it's a little bit muted by having a powerful 'bodyguard' with him, but not much. ]
I hope you're right. [ a pause. ] Say, can I ask you a question?
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Sure, I guess so. What is it?
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[ maybe "turned blue and glowy" is more accurate, but he doesn't want to accidentally tick her off by being too blunt. ]
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Mm, sort of! They glow is a better way to describe it. I never remember the really detailed explanation, but you know how animals' eyes kind of shine in the dark? It's a lot like that, except they only change when I have a lot of adrne— Wait, that's not it... [She murmurs a few attempts at the world quietly before she comes up with the right one.] —adrenaline. It only happens when I have a lot of that in my blood.
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I-is that it? I couldn't help but wonder. [ at least she's not also a cyborg / possessed / other possible b-movie monster explanation. Garry steps up his pace a bit to try and walk beside her instead of behind her; he's warily glancing around at the buildings as he does so. ] I think that I had more adrenaline in my blood than you did, though.
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I— I don't actually know what it is. So I don't know what you mean.
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Garry actually offers her a friendly smile for what might be the first time, despite still feeling a little harassed from that tunnel transportation. ] Well, that's fine! You are from another time, after all. I'm no scientist, but I think adrenaline is a sort of chemical your body produces when it's using up lots of energy, whether you're running or just nervous.
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I guess that would make sense, then.
[Diva can remember those experiments a bit more distinctly than others, since it had taken more effort on Joel and Amshel's part to actively provoke the reaction. By the time they had discovered it, she had already lost most of her sense of pain. It was especially brutal things that had to cause her eyes to light up, only to be plucked right out of its socket.
And it makes her laugh, remembering that. She looks ahead with a little smile, deciding that it might be a fun little piece of information to share. It wasn't like she saw any threat in revealing it to Garry. Though really, she was deciding to open that door just a crack for the sake of seeing his reaction.]
It's what Amshel told me, so it's usually easy to repeat like I know. Well, now I know, so I won't have to worry about it anymore. But I guess they couldn't just look at my blood for that back then, so they actually took it out to dissect it. [She laughs] It was pretty gross!
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Garry almost stops in his tracks, shooting her a horrified look. How can she just casually drop something like that into conversation?! So much for her 'normal girl' side... ]
W-what?! Diva, what are you saying? Someone dissected your eyes?! That's absolutely horrific!!
[ part of him wonders if she's just trying to rile him up, but her expression - the lack of eye contact - makes him doubt that she's teasing. ]
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Oh, that was just one, actually. That one isn't so bad, because once they take it out, it's gone.
[Since she's taken a few steps in front of him, she turns so that she's facing him, but walking backwards with light, whimsical steps]
Do you want to hear a story that's a secret? It's just for you to know, if you want to hear it.
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But if she was opening up to him, it was on him to listen. That was what being a friend meant... Were they even friends? This trip sort of felt like something friends would do together, but he was struggling to accept the fact that he'd befriended a murderer. Isn't this exactly what he said he wouldn't do? ]
... I... I suppose I'll hear you out.
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I was born without a name. I didn't have a name at all until I had already been alive for fifty years, because what I was supposed to be, it doesn't need a name.
[There's a light pause there as she shifts to clasp her hands behind her back.]
Because I told you, right? A Chiropteran isn't something supernatural or anything. We're another species, so when a curious scientist finds a new species, they want to learn about it. And since there was my twin sister and I, she was the one chosen to live normally as a control, but I was the one that was locked up in a tower so that they could find out everything there was to know about a Chiropteran. And it's something enchanting to humans, because we hold the secret of immortality.
So everything terrible you can think of, I know it really well! Cutting off my arms and legs and letting them float in a tub full of blood to watch how they'd reattach. Opening me up in a way that doesn't kill me so that they can watch my heart beat, and then carefully move them one by one to see what's necessary. Injecting me with human diseases to see how I would react, even though it would usually just kill me slowly and over and over again, because even if I can regenerate from anything, what gets rid of diseases isn't much different, I guess.
[She tilts her head thoughtfully] But you get used to those things. I don't remember what it's like to feel pain like that, because I never knew what it was like to feel anything else. But being trapped in a tiny room without anything but chains to keep me there, and always slowly dying and wishing that maybe the next time, I would wake up... You never get used to that. I was just an animal that they were keeping alive so that they could keep doing their experiments.
[She looks back to Garry, smiling pleasantly]
So you know, it's funny that humans are so afraid of me. They're the ones that can be the real monsters.
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It would be easy to snap out and defend humans here, saying that, well, she'd killed so many of them anyway, of course they're afraid of her; if this had been neared to when they'd first met, he might have done just that. But he can't just look at her and see a monster now - especially when she'd just spilled her guts out in front of him. And because part of him knows that she's right. Beyond this specific instance, in spite of his general optimism, he knows that humans have caused almost all the pain in the world that he knows. Diva just happened to live to tell about it. ]
... Diva... So that's why... [ he wonders why she's telling him this. he's nothing special, himself, and he can't even really think of how to reply; he's just shocked, looking on at her with -- pity? Apology? ] ... Nobody deserves that, human or not. I'm sorry. I... I'm not sure what you want me to say, and I know it probably doesn't mean much coming from me, but... I would say that you're right. They were the monsters. Not you.
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You don't have to say anything. Because I've told you, it just means that I like you.
[ There's a pause, since she's not addressing anything he's said, really. ] Because without knowing that, you can't know me at all. That's what I mean.
nO THAT ICON IS SO CUTE stop it diva!!
W -- Well, I can't just say nothing to something like that...! [ he picks up his pace a little bit, jogging up to walk beside her, if a little bit anxiously. ] There's a lot more to your story than I thought there was when we first spoke. You know, I can't forgive the things you said you did... But I don't have to define you by them, either. After all, I don't exactly have a clean record, myself.
bite m--oh wait
Um... [ But still, it's hard to talk much more about it without slipping out of her comfort zone, so she looks to him with a curious expression and tone instead. ] What do you mean by that? What have you done?
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Well, she'd gone and told him what she'd done. Maybe it was time for him to own up to this. It wasn't that he'd believed he'd acted wrongly at that time; in fact, he doesn't think there was anything else he could have done. But it didn't change what happened then. ]
... If I tell you, you have to promise to keep it between you and me, all right? It's a very personal matter.
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I promise. If it's you, then it can't be anything as bad as what I've told you, right?
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Well... Just a little while before I got stuck here, I was stuck somewhere else, you see... A really terrible art gallery. At least, it looked like one. That's where I met Ib. [ he sticks his hands in his pockets. ] The gallery was full of these violent creatures and awful little games and puzzles, but if we wanted to get out, we had to go through them all. But the truth is that there was another little girl there... if you can call her that. She was just a painting like all the other monsters there, really, and she dragged us to her world so that she would have "friends," I think. In the end, though, once we learned her secret, I guess she decided it would be easier just to kill us.
[ it's hard to tell if his vagueness is real uncertainty or an attempt to couch what he did. Either way, it looks like it's his turn to just keep his gaze forward. ] ... And she really would have killed the two of us, right there in that gallery! So -- I had to do it first. To protect Ib, I had to... stop her. I burned her up. And we did get out afterwards.
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(Though, later, if she thinks about the little painting's side of the story instead of just Garry's, she might find her story sympathetic.)
To her, it's perfectly reasonable. You kill something that tries to kill you. It's a basic rule of life, and humans were really the only ones to try and deny it. But she knows to not say such a thing, so she nods lightly in understanding. ]
Well, that's the only thing there was to do. I guess you feel bad because you're a gentle person, but... [ Diva pauses and looks to him before she adds: ] But if you're protecting yourself, and someone else too, then you do what you have to. Isn't that a pretty brave thing to do?
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Maybe. [ It was definitely the right thing to do, he told himself, but that didn't make it a good thing. Maybe she wasn't a human and she was trying to kill him, but she was also a lonely little girl, whether he liked it or not. What a familiar dilemma... ]
... But don't sound surprised. I can be pretty brave when it counts, you know!
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Oh, excuse me! I didn't really mean to, but it's still hard imagining when I've only seen you as being pretty skittish... But I'll believe you! I'm sure you have a brave, chivalrous knight somewhere in you!
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this is cute all of the sudden wtf
i blame diva
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