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GARRY ✽ ([personal profile] eeek) wrote2013-03-09 08:30 pm
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INBOX FOR HAVEN










IC INBOX
HAVEN 3.004 BLOCK 3

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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-13 06:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ She seems like she's about to enthusiastically talk about her decorating choices, but sputters slightly when he asks the question. For asking him to come talk to her, she's awfully awkward and hesitant to talk about it, apparently. After her half-start, she sighs, her shoulders sinking, and Diva just turns her eyes to her lap instead. ]

Hey, Garry...

[ How could she even start? Actually, what had she even really wanted to say? Now that he's sitting next to her, she's having difficulty thinking of it, because she's such a straight-forward person. But she knows by now that she can't just demand that he not see her sister. ]

Did— Did I ever tell you about my sister? I don't quite remember.
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-13 07:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ For a moment, she turns her gaze sharply towards Garry, looking angry, of all things, as if he had done something terribly wrong. It's just her immediate, fearful reaction, because though she could pretend otherwise, sometimes the fact that the people she had interacted with almost exclusively in her life were her Chevalier shown through. She's afraid, because Saya would—

But she catches herself from snapping at him. The angry expression changes into a grimace, like she's pained at forcing it away. ]
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-13 07:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ Diva takes a deep breath, and the emotion she had shown disappears, all at once. Her voice and expression are now cool and distant, and she looks away from Garry, like it's not a big deal. There was a lot to say for her relationship with Saya, and she's fairly sure she would. But the complexity of it could be summed up rather easily by one simple fact. ]

My dear twin, she's the one that killed me.
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-15 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ When she sees that fear, her eyes immediately drift downward as if she's embarrassed at it, but her expression reads as more troubled than embarrassed. When he responds, she hears it as disbelief, maybe because that's the story she's already built up for herself. Her head dips further so that her hair obscures her face, but Garry will be able to see how her hands clench tightly in her lap, almost trembling. It won't do well to dispel the idea that she's angry, since this could all be read as a deep fury too, but that's not it.

She's scared. She's so scared that she wants to cry, because in this scenario that she's seen played out before her over and over again, she'll lose. Saya is the "good" sister, so of course anyone would pick her over Diva. That's the way that it's always been, and she's so afraid that that's how it'll be here.

There's a tense silence, but when Diva speaks up, her voice is so delicate and fragile, because she's already jumped way ahead in her conclusions. ]


Don't... Don't leave me too, Garry.
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-15 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ She doesn't meet his eyes, and looks in the exact other direction, but the mask she usually wears is faltering now. Diva definitely has an expression like she's about to cry, but her eyes are completely dry and not glassy at all. It might clue Garry into the fact that she almost can't cry anymore. But there's a sad, vulnerable gesture to replace it as she reaches out for him, not to take his hand, but to grip the sleeve of his coat securely, almost possessively. ]

Don't pick sister over me.

[ Her voice is heavy and thick with emotion when she says something so simple, because it's a fear she's never expressed before. She's scared, and scared of being alone, and it's very clear in her tone. ]
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-15 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ She turns slightly to look at him, but seeing that seriously look in his eyes, she moves quickly. To poor Garry, it's probably frightening, combined with her erratic behavior so far, as if she might just kill him in a moment of insanity. But it's clear after a moment of that fright passes that it's anything but.

Diva is hugging Garry tightly, desperately, much more like a scared, lost child than a cold and composed Queen of the vampires. Whatever history was between Diva and her sister was clearly enough to truly unnerve Diva and for her to really believe that Garry would abandon her. She doesn't say anything right away, just buries her head into Garry's shoulder. ]


You... You promise, Garry?
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-15 06:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Diva feels like, in part, she might be being naive too. It's really an irrational worry when it comes to someone like Garry, but she's had all the worst lessons taught to her in her life. People were fickle and untrustworthy, but... She really wants to believe otherwise. It's shown in how she clings to Garry, and how she relaxes when he gives his promise. She doesn't pull away from the hug, but she answers the unspoken question, even if it's muffled because she's talking into his shoulder. ]

Saya is... Saya is the one that's been happy. And Saya always takes away mine, because she's too stupid to realize it. Sister is the good one, so everyone loves her. [ "but never me" isn't said, yet it's plainly apparent in how bitterly she says it. ]
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-17 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Diva nods, composing herself enough to draw back from the hug. She remembers now that she hadn't told Garry anything about Saya, had she? He knew about the tower, but... Not how she had left it. And not anything that happened after. ]

Saya is the one that got to live happily. Saya is the one that's always been the lucky one and never had to feel any real difficulty in her life. Because when Joel found Mother, there were twins inside her. One of them was raised as his daughter and given everything a normal girl would be, like a name. The other one was just a test subject, so that girl didn't need a name. I told you, I wasn't named until I'd already been alive for fifty years, right?

[ She bows her head lightly, resting it against Garry's shoulder. It's not an amount of emotion and hurt she might show normally, but with Saya here, she can't help it. Just for this once, she thinks... Just for this once, she'll allow herself to be sad. ]

Saya is the one that named me. My dear sister was the first voice I ever heard that wasn't Joel or Amshel's. She said my voice was beautiful, but I didn't know what that meant, you know. But it was alright, since sister liked to talk, so she just decided that it was sad that I didn't have a name. So I'm the "princess with the fair voice," Diva, just like she said. But even more than that, Saya is the one that let me out of the tower. She found the key and unlocked the door, because she wanted me to come to Joel's birthday party and sing for them.

[ She laughs dully, shaking her head. ] Sister is a stupid girl, though. I killed Joel. Of course I killed him, because he was a monster. It was just supposed to be him, but things got out of hand after that, so it was everyone there. Joel was Saya's father, and she never knew what kind of monster he was, so... It was me, instead. Ever since that day, Saya wanted to kill me, and you know, she did just that.
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-18 04:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Diva doesn't move at all in response to the hand on her shoulder or his words. There's something dull in her chest to hear him say that she didn't deserve to die, and it almost cracks a small wall around her heart. But it doesn't, so she just stares ahead and answers his question coolly. With how she talks about these things, there's so much distance, as if she were talking about something that had happened to someone else. ]

I don't know. Probably. Saya says that she only exists to kill me, so... She would, wouldn't she?

[ It seems like that's all she'd say to that for a moment, but she adds onto it after a few moments. And compared to that cool tone, this time, her voice is more fragile and more upset. ]

But... I don't care about that. Sister— Sister takes people away from me. She kills them, or they love her more, like with Solomon and Karl, so... [ The crack widens, and her shoulders tremble, just slightly. ] So don't leave me, Garry.
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-19 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ Diva looks up at him as he begins to speak, and for a moment, her expression is difficult and hard to read. It's a strange expression, like she's uncertain what she should be showing on her face, but it's clear why after a moment.

We're friends - your sister won't change that.

It has her bringing her hands up to cover her nose and mouth as a strange hiccuping noise comes out of her mouth before she starts to cry. It's nice, hearing something like that, so it's really out of relief. She's not completely sure if she can believe it, but she wants to, and that's all that matters. It's a crack in her defenses that isn't really much, but behind the walls she's built up is a lifetime of pain, of hurt, and she's never been allowed to express it at all. So when it cracks, she can't help herself. She's relieved, and even if it feels like she might be fooling herself, if Garry is telling the truth, then... He'll be the first one.

It's so sad, though, that in living for almost two centuries, that he's one of the very few people she's given that trust to. All of her pretty masks are forgotten for the moment, because these aren't crocodile tears, but real, ugly, sobbing tears. And she's doubtlessly getting them all over Garry, since she chooses to hide her face by clinging to him. ]
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-20 03:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Later, when Diva takes the time to look back and think about this, she'll think much the same. She had misjudged Garry, but it wasn't because of anything about him personally. Diva had just never received such kindness from a human before, so she had grown cold and hateful towards them as a whole. And yet, here was one holding her and comforting her like only Amshel (and Abel, but he was a special case) had.

It takes her a few minutes to calm her sobbing, but she still hiccups for air. Her face doesn't move either, but that's more because she realized as she calmed down that her face was far from as pretty and composed as she would like it. ]


I— If you're lying to me, I'll kill you...

[ But rather than a real threat, it's said childishly and through those little hiccups. ]
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-21 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Now she pulls back more, showing her not so composed face at the moment, but she looks surprised. ]

Me? About what?
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[personal profile] madamemoiselle 2013-07-23 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her surprise stays for a moment, but she looks down bashfully, though she rubs at her eyes as if that were the reason. ]

Ah... You don't really need to apologize for that. [ After all, she did, sometimes. She had hardly tried it or even really thought to in Haven, but. Her face feels a little drier, so she chuckles a little, since she feels silly. Though it very rarely happened, she hated crying in front of others. It wasn't exactly flattering, and yet here Garry was trying to comfort her. It's touching, honestly. She could say a simple thank you, but Diva feels that it doesn't quite express her gratitude as she wants it to. So instead, she leans up a little, just to give Garry a very gentle kiss on his cheek. ]

Thank you.

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