[ Her reply is simple and short, but despite that, there's the sense that she's leaving out something important. Garry has been witness to this part of her before, like in the fog in the hospital, so it's surely clear that something is wrong, though. Her voice is distant and subdued, the clearest signs that she was deeply upset. ]
I'm just hungry. Would you mind letting me feed on you?
[ yeah, it's been clear since her first message that something wasn't right, and her response just drives it home - the tone of it, at least.
The content was something entirely different, and though he automatically starts to answer in the affirmative, he stops short for a moment. Feed on him meant actually biting his neck and sucking out his blood, obviously. Everything he knew about vampires pointed to that being fatal. It would be the first time she'd ever actually hurt him, and he trusts her, he thinks, but... the idea still makes him shudder.
Nonetheless, he'd offered it, hadn't he? Way back when they first met, under entirely different circumstances... with a much worse impression of her, too. This should be fine, right? Diva wouldn't hurt him, right? At the very least, he had to see what was wrong with her and talk to her... ]
... Sure. O-of course... Do you want me to come down to you, or...?
[ if she needed one vote for Garry's faith in her, it has to be this. It absolutely scares him, but he really believes she wouldn't harm him. ]
No, I'd rather meet you somewhere else, if that's alright.
[ She hasn't decided on her new source of food, after all, so she doesn't want Charles or Ciel to make assumptions that she has. For now, she's effectively just testing the water. There's an awkward pause, but she adds, ] ...Um, where would you like to meet?
[ he figures it's just for secrecy reasons, so he doesn't argue. ]
Where... [ as much as he'd prefer being in someplace familiar to make the experience less nerve-wracking, it would be awkward if someone walked in on this situation... but he's not sure what other options he has. It's not like there's anywhere else to go. ] Well, I suppose you could come here, instead. Unless you mean you want to get out of the apartments altogether.
Mmm, that's just fine. I'll be waiting for you, then.
[ though if she thinks he's going to let her suck his neck and then just leave like that, he's wrong. But he does indeed wait, half-worrying about what might have happened to make her upset again, half-fretting about what's about to happen and wondering if he just sealed his fate... ]
[ And indeed, about a minute later, there's a light knock at Garry's door, but she just lets herself in. She's rude ok...
Diva definitely does look worse for wear now, much more than she had when he'd run into her after her excursion into the tunnels. The weariness that everyone else had been feeling seems to be reflected in her now, from her posture to her listless expression, but that's strange, of course. The usual energy and vibrancy that Diva tends to carry about her seems greatly subdued now, and as such, she only offers him a feeble, clearly forced smile. ]
Mm, hello, Garry. Thank you for letting me, by the way.
[ he gets up to open the door, but she lets herself in anyway... well, whatever. It only takes one look at her to confirm that, yes, something is definitely wrong, and it only takes one look at him to know that he's clearly concerned about it. ]
Ah, you're welcome, [ he answers, rather distractedly, looking her over for some kind of apparent injury, which is admittedly a pretty silly thing to do, considering her healing powers. Should he let her go ahead and bite him, or should he ask right away? He's not sure what would be better. Garry thinks that, anyway, but in the end, it's too hard to ignore her downtrodden appearance. ] ... Are you all right? You don't look well.
[ Diva shakes her head as she walks closer. ] Well, no. But how I look, that's just because I haven't eaten in a month, right? If you didn't eat for a long time, you wouldn't look very well either.
[ It's more than that, and she knows it's clear, but... For right now, she'd rather focus on getting her meal. Even though she'd waited, it was hard to deny the hunger she felt now, especially with Garry before her. ]
We can talk afterwards, though. [ There's more of a command in that, and she looks up at him. ] It won't hurt very much, I don't think.
[ She's dodging the question. But he hears the command in her voice, and considering she's not in her best mood and is also about to bite the most vulnerable part of his body, he decides not to argue. ]
... We will talk afterwards. [ well, not too much, at least. Garry drops it at that, though, rubbing his neck and looking faintly uneasy afterwards. There wasn't going to be any putting this off, looks like. ]
... But, uh... All right. [ he leans down a little, voice becoming a bit of a squeak, despite how serious he was a moment ago. ] B-be gentle with me, though. Please.
HAHA maybe that's what chiropterans really are who knows
[ His nervousness makes her laugh a little, even if it's feeble, but she nods. ]
I will be. I promise. So, here...
[ She is careful, certainly more careful than she'd been with Abel, since Diva knew that she could boss him around or injure him without much worry other than possibly dealing with his fake tears. That makes her heart pang for a moment, because like many other things, it's sad to think that she won't get to do that again. Diva reaches up to Garry's neck, directing him downwards since she can't reach easily unless he moves. She moves closer, and for a moment, this could be taken as an entirely different gesture of intimacy, because she's very close and breathing against his neck, but—
She bites.
As she said, the bite itself isn't very painful, since it just makes two small puncture wounds, and her fangs don't linger. She withdraws them quickly, but after that, it's an entirely different sensation as she sucks at his neck to encourage more blood to flow. It's doubtlessly a strange and frightening feeling, since she's drinking his blood quickly, and her expression is serene and distant, like she's not paying attention. He'll feel his strength wane, bit by bit as she continues to drink, but as quickly as she had begun, she stops. She pulls her lips away, though she licks one last time at the wounds, before Diva pulls back to look at him. Already, she looks much less sickly, though she hadn't taken as much as she needed, since she didn't want to incapacitate Garry, even if it wouldn't have killed him. She'd find the rest she needed elsewhere. ]
Ah, that's much better... Thank you, Garry.
saya and diva are like vash and knives... except vampires
[ he moves as she directs him, even if it might feel strange, because he doesn't want to mess up whatever she does and accidentally cut an artery or something. And it certainly does feel strange; there's a weirdly intimate vibe to this whole gesture, and that just makes him even more nervous than he already was. But... it's just Diva, right? As much as she could be called "just" anyone - she wouldn't hurt him.
To his credit, Garry doesn't react with anything more than a wince when she actually bites him, and he's thankful at first that that's all there is to this. But then, of course, she actually has to draw the blood up out of him, and that's an even more uncomfortable sensation - not painful, but uncomfortable. Both because he can feel himself getting slightly light-headed from it, and because of the bizarre dichotomy of the act, sort of equal parts seductive and horrifying (and though he purposefully tries to avoid describing or thinking of her as either thing, he can't change his gut reaction.) He's glad it's a mercifully short drink; when she pulls back, his hand automatically goes to his new injury, and he blinks hard, shaking his head a little. ]
Mm... You're welcome. [ Is that even a proper response to that? Well, he tried. And, miraculously, he's still alive. Not that he'd doubted her word -- well, maybe a little, scaredy cat that he is -- and it doesn't even hurt that much. After a moment, he offers a small laugh of disbelief. ] ... You really are a vampire.
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[ And if it were anyone but Garry, she would tease on that very idea. Of course she knew that it was an innately intimate gesture, and more than a few times... Her feeding often led into more intimacy. But she licks at her lis absently, savoring the taste, since she realizes belatedly that his blood has a nice taste. If he didn't smoke, then it would be exactly her type, but she can't afford to be as picky in Haven as she had been at home.
Feeling more at ease without worrying about her meals, her expression is definitely softer, though still weary, as is her laugh at his comment. ]
What, did you think I was kidding up until now?
[ She runs a hand through her hair, glancing to the side. ]
I'll be alright for a while thanks to you, though.
i'll just start putting random things here to confuse you!!
It's not that. I mean, I know that you're a... well, a supernatural woman, but I've just never actually seen you drink blood, or do anything like that...
[ it sounds a little silly, but it's true; she wasn't much like the "vampires" who slept in coffins and turned into bats that he associated with the concept. But he can feel the little pinpricks of tenderness on his neck, and those make it much more real.
Under other circumstances, he'd ask if they'd heal quickly or if he was going to turn into one too (even though she's definitely explained to him that no, he won't, at least twice), but once he gets his footing back a little, his concern immediately lights on Diva again. Garry really is foolishly sympathetic. ]
... But I'm not so sure that you're going to be as all right as you say.
[ It makes her laugh a little more to hear, and a little cheerfully, but of course it fades as he continues. Her smile turns sad, then falters in a flicker that he'll see as she looks down. ]
[ There's an automatic feeling of guilt for making her sad again, but judging from her reactions, it's not like his lame antics would have really lifted her spirits. Garry sighs quietly, gaze lingering on her downturned head. ]
That sad look doesn't suit you a pretty lady like you at all... I don't like it. [ but he sure is seeing a lot of it lately - this scared and broken inner Diva instead of the cheerful and proud queen. Despite the fact that she had her fangs in his neck not a minute ago, he finds he's less afraid of her than ever these days. ] Will you come and sit down?
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...you're not supposed to prove me right immediately!!
[ At least she listens to him; he was worried he'd have to really push to get her to talk. He probably really would have pushed, too, if she hadn't. She's gone through enough trouble without being able to tell others about it - whatever's bothering her, the last thing she needs is another problem to bottle up inside. That's what Garry thinks, at least. And just like in the hospital, he's still a little surprised at the extent of his own worry for her.
He'll lead her to the apartment's couch (ratty, but usable) and take a seat next to her, though he keeps a good amount of space between them. ]
I'd normally ask if you want something to drink, but I suppose you've already had me, so... I'll just ask if you want to talk to me, instead. If something's wrong, I can listen.
[ Normally, she'd laugh at that comment, but... She doesn't quite feel like it. The silence on her part stays, but she eventually leans over so that her head can rest on Garry's shoulder. It still takes her a few more moments, but eventually, she offers softly: ]
Abel left.
garry is always lame tbh... it's part of the charm
[ as always, her penchant for physical affection makes him startle a little, but he doesn't try to move her; he just waits for her to speak.
When she does... ah. So that's it. Garry didn't have great fondness for the man, but he was kind to him at times. More than that, though, he knows that he shared a very close relationship with Diva, one that had impacted her behavior a lot; it's probably thanks to Abel that he could even befriend her at all. (Is he thankful for that? He thinks so. Yes, he's glad that he met her, he thinks.) ]
Left...? [ his voice is quiet. ] No way... But he was right there at the end.
[ It stings a little, to hear him say that, but her emotionless expression doesn't change at all. She just stares ahead at some spot in the floor blankly. ]
He said he would take me with him. But... He couldn't, I guess. He couldn't do that even if he wanted to.
[ Has he ever seen her looking like this? He doesn't think so. Wanting to provide some kind of support, he hesitantly rests a hand on her shoulder, gazing sympathetically at her turned profile. She's probably talking about leaving Haven, he thinks - that, or escaping the hospital, but considering one of those happened and the other didn't...
There's no good answer, really, because he doesn't know what happened to Abel. Maybe he died. Garry doesn't know about the Methuselah or the Crusnik. Maybe he was recaptured. Most likely, he just disappeared like so many other people had. ]
... He still would have, Diva. He didn't leave you, he was -- taken from us. I know that for sure.
[ When his hand rests on her shoulder, she looks down to her hands in her lap instead. Her expression is still blank and emotionless, and... No matter how many people say them, she can't take comfort in those words. It wasn't supposed to be this way, because Abel was supposed to be different. He was supposed to be the one that wouldn't disappoint her, so she could open her heart to the possibility of a future with hope. And she had finally opened herself to the possibility, but only to find him—
Gone.
Every time she thinks about it, it pangs in her chest painfully. As it always was for her, she was so close, only to have something she couldn't control steal it away. It's that thought that makes her eyes well up with tears she thought she was done crying, but she doesn't quite realize that they're there, not at first. ]
Why...
[ She says it softly, but her head ducks more as she feels the grief overwhelm her again, but this one is a bit different from her initial outburst at discovering he'd left. This one comes with that realization that she had been so close, once again, to establishing something she had so deeply longed for as soon as she knew what it was, but was repeatedly denied at every attempt. Her voice comes out very fragile and tremulous as she tries to hold back her tears, because she's cried so much, and she's tired of it. But it's painful, and she clutches her sides like she's in pain. ]
[ her face isn't pointed towards him, and he can't see her tears, but he can hear them when she speaks again, and they hurt. With her words, even moreso. Garry can't imagine what her life is like - the loneliness must be crushing to a degree he can't understand, being born in this world just to be used and abused and treated like an animal. Even the idea of immortality on its own seems like it would come hand in hand with despair. But he can understand this sentiment, he thinks. Family. ]
Oh, Diva... [ Garry looks for words - he doesn't know her history there. Suggesting Charles seems like going to far when he hardly knows what their relationship is like, though he feels like he's probably the closest thing she has to family. And he can't offer himself, because he's not. He's not Abel or Charles. He's just Garry.
So he doesn't try saying anything and risking making her pain worse. Instead, he quietly turns toward her more in his seat, moving his hand from her shoulder to rest over one of hers at her side and pulling her towards him a little in a half-embrace. From this angle, it's hard to do it properly. He inclines his head, speaking softly. ] Come here... Don't say that. It's too sad...
[ She doesn't pull away from the half-hug, but she doesn't quite return it either. Diva sits there passively for a few moments, clearly trying to keep herself from crying more, so... She talks. Because it is sad, and if one more person knows it, then so be it. ]
No, it's— I just can't have something like that. No matter how much I try, no matter what, it doesn't work. Because I'm not... I'm not the one that was ever meant to be loved, so that's it, right? Sister was the one that let me out, but she hated me ever since that day. I don't think Amshel ever loved me at all, but I never, I couldn't be alone. I couldn't have lived without him, and I shouldn't have...
[ She shakes her head, curling in on herself more, still trying valiantly not to lose it even though she's trembling. But whatever she was going to say about what she shouldn't have done seems forgotten as she continues. ]
And every Chevalier was the same as the last one, you know. They were terrible, awful things, but as long as we could pretend, as long as I could pretend that we loved each other, that was alright. I could pretend. But I wouldn't have had to, not with my daughters. My beautiful daughters would have loved me, because I was their mother. But if my daughters got to live, then their mother would have to die, because Saya would never let them live without killing me, since I was the one she hated so much. I could die alone, and that would be it. That's fine, I thought.
So...Why? I hate that man, because I was done. I didn't have to try anymore, but I'm stupid... Why did I expect anything to be different, do you know? I should have never believed him. No one could be a father to me. No one could really just let me go with them and start over. I was never supposed to be the one that was loved.
[ It's a quiet anger, not vicious like the one she had shown Ciel and Charles. But it's the breaking point, so she chokes out a sob, almost folded over on herself by now. Hearing that raw, emotional story is something that few ever get the chance to hear from Diva, but it highlights the very sad, central point of her tragedy. For all the violence and pain, both suffered and inflicted, at the heart of everything, Diva was just a girl that wanted to be loved above all else, because it was something she'd never been given. Not until she met Abel. ]
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I'm just hungry. Would you mind letting me feed on you?
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The content was something entirely different, and though he automatically starts to answer in the affirmative, he stops short for a moment. Feed on him meant actually biting his neck and sucking out his blood, obviously. Everything he knew about vampires pointed to that being fatal. It would be the first time she'd ever actually hurt him, and he trusts her, he thinks, but... the idea still makes him shudder.
Nonetheless, he'd offered it, hadn't he? Way back when they first met, under entirely different circumstances... with a much worse impression of her, too. This should be fine, right? Diva wouldn't hurt him, right? At the very least, he had to see what was wrong with her and talk to her... ]
... Sure. O-of course... Do you want me to come down to you, or...?
[ if she needed one vote for Garry's faith in her, it has to be this. It absolutely scares him, but he really believes she wouldn't harm him. ]
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[ She hasn't decided on her new source of food, after all, so she doesn't want Charles or Ciel to make assumptions that she has. For now, she's effectively just testing the water. There's an awkward pause, but she adds, ] ...Um, where would you like to meet?
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Where... [ as much as he'd prefer being in someplace familiar to make the experience less nerve-wracking, it would be awkward if someone walked in on this situation... but he's not sure what other options he has. It's not like there's anywhere else to go. ] Well, I suppose you could come here, instead. Unless you mean you want to get out of the apartments altogether.
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[ There is definitely a question mark on "impose," but it's only because she's not completely sure that it's the right word... ]
I'll come upstairs now, if that's okay?
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[ though if she thinks he's going to let her suck his neck and then just leave like that, he's wrong. But he does indeed wait, half-worrying about what might have happened to make her upset again, half-fretting about what's about to happen and wondering if he just sealed his fate... ]
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Diva definitely does look worse for wear now, much more than she had when he'd run into her after her excursion into the tunnels. The weariness that everyone else had been feeling seems to be reflected in her now, from her posture to her listless expression, but that's strange, of course. The usual energy and vibrancy that Diva tends to carry about her seems greatly subdued now, and as such, she only offers him a feeble, clearly forced smile. ]
Mm, hello, Garry. Thank you for letting me, by the way.
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Ah, you're welcome, [ he answers, rather distractedly, looking her over for some kind of apparent injury, which is admittedly a pretty silly thing to do, considering her healing powers. Should he let her go ahead and bite him, or should he ask right away? He's not sure what would be better. Garry thinks that, anyway, but in the end, it's too hard to ignore her downtrodden appearance. ] ... Are you all right? You don't look well.
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[ It's more than that, and she knows it's clear, but... For right now, she'd rather focus on getting her meal. Even though she'd waited, it was hard to deny the hunger she felt now, especially with Garry before her. ]
We can talk afterwards, though. [ There's more of a command in that, and she looks up at him. ] It won't hurt very much, I don't think.
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... We will talk afterwards. [ well, not too much, at least. Garry drops it at that, though, rubbing his neck and looking faintly uneasy afterwards. There wasn't going to be any putting this off, looks like. ]
... But, uh... All right. [ he leans down a little, voice becoming a bit of a squeak, despite how serious he was a moment ago. ] B-be gentle with me, though. Please.
HAHA maybe that's what chiropterans really are who knows
I will be. I promise. So, here...
[ She is careful, certainly more careful than she'd been with Abel, since Diva knew that she could boss him around or injure him without much worry other than possibly dealing with his fake tears. That makes her heart pang for a moment, because like many other things, it's sad to think that she won't get to do that again. Diva reaches up to Garry's neck, directing him downwards since she can't reach easily unless he moves. She moves closer, and for a moment, this could be taken as an entirely different gesture of intimacy, because she's very close and breathing against his neck, but—
She bites.
As she said, the bite itself isn't very painful, since it just makes two small puncture wounds, and her fangs don't linger. She withdraws them quickly, but after that, it's an entirely different sensation as she sucks at his neck to encourage more blood to flow. It's doubtlessly a strange and frightening feeling, since she's drinking his blood quickly, and her expression is serene and distant, like she's not paying attention. He'll feel his strength wane, bit by bit as she continues to drink, but as quickly as she had begun, she stops. She pulls her lips away, though she licks one last time at the wounds, before Diva pulls back to look at him. Already, she looks much less sickly, though she hadn't taken as much as she needed, since she didn't want to incapacitate Garry, even if it wouldn't have killed him. She'd find the rest she needed elsewhere. ]
Ah, that's much better... Thank you, Garry.
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To his credit, Garry doesn't react with anything more than a wince when she actually bites him, and he's thankful at first that that's all there is to this. But then, of course, she actually has to draw the blood up out of him, and that's an even more uncomfortable sensation - not painful, but uncomfortable. Both because he can feel himself getting slightly light-headed from it, and because of the bizarre dichotomy of the act, sort of equal parts seductive and horrifying (and though he purposefully tries to avoid describing or thinking of her as either thing, he can't change his gut reaction.) He's glad it's a mercifully short drink; when she pulls back, his hand automatically goes to his new injury, and he blinks hard, shaking his head a little. ]
Mm... You're welcome. [ Is that even a proper response to that? Well, he tried. And, miraculously, he's still alive. Not that he'd doubted her word -- well, maybe a little, scaredy cat that he is -- and it doesn't even hurt that much. After a moment, he offers a small laugh of disbelief. ] ... You really are a vampire.
i forgot what our headers were so i was really confused at first
Feeling more at ease without worrying about her meals, her expression is definitely softer, though still weary, as is her laugh at his comment. ]
What, did you think I was kidding up until now?
[ She runs a hand through her hair, glancing to the side. ]
I'll be alright for a while thanks to you, though.
i'll just start putting random things here to confuse you!!
[ it sounds a little silly, but it's true; she wasn't much like the "vampires" who slept in coffins and turned into bats that he associated with the concept. But he can feel the little pinpricks of tenderness on his neck, and those make it much more real.
Under other circumstances, he'd ask if they'd heal quickly or if he was going to turn into one too (even though she's definitely explained to him that no, he won't, at least twice), but once he gets his footing back a little, his concern immediately lights on Diva again. Garry really is foolishly sympathetic. ]
... But I'm not so sure that you're going to be as all right as you say.
it would work...
...No. I won't be.
chocolate pudding...
That sad look doesn't suit you a pretty lady like you at all... I don't like it. [ but he sure is seeing a lot of it lately - this scared and broken inner Diva instead of the cheerful and proud queen. Despite the fact that she had her fangs in his neck not a minute ago, he finds he's less afraid of her than ever these days. ] Will you come and sit down?
...you're not supposed to prove me right immediately!!
EHEHEHEHEH
He'll lead her to the apartment's couch (ratty, but usable) and take a seat next to her, though he keeps a good amount of space between them. ]
I'd normally ask if you want something to drink, but I suppose you've already had me, so... I'll just ask if you want to talk to me, instead. If something's wrong, I can listen.
omg garry that's so lame
Abel left.
garry is always lame tbh... it's part of the charm
When she does... ah. So that's it. Garry didn't have great fondness for the man, but he was kind to him at times. More than that, though, he knows that he shared a very close relationship with Diva, one that had impacted her behavior a lot; it's probably thanks to Abel that he could even befriend her at all. (Is he thankful for that? He thinks so. Yes, he's glad that he met her, he thinks.) ]
Left...? [ his voice is quiet. ] No way... But he was right there at the end.
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He said he would take me with him. But... He couldn't, I guess. He couldn't do that even if he wanted to.
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There's no good answer, really, because he doesn't know what happened to Abel. Maybe he died. Garry doesn't know about the Methuselah or the Crusnik. Maybe he was recaptured. Most likely, he just disappeared like so many other people had. ]
... He still would have, Diva. He didn't leave you, he was -- taken from us. I know that for sure.
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Gone.
Every time she thinks about it, it pangs in her chest painfully. As it always was for her, she was so close, only to have something she couldn't control steal it away. It's that thought that makes her eyes well up with tears she thought she was done crying, but she doesn't quite realize that they're there, not at first. ]
Why...
[ She says it softly, but her head ducks more as she feels the grief overwhelm her again, but this one is a bit different from her initial outburst at discovering he'd left. This one comes with that realization that she had been so close, once again, to establishing something she had so deeply longed for as soon as she knew what it was, but was repeatedly denied at every attempt. Her voice comes out very fragile and tremulous as she tries to hold back her tears, because she's cried so much, and she's tired of it. But it's painful, and she clutches her sides like she's in pain. ]
Why is a family the only thing I can't have?
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Oh, Diva... [ Garry looks for words - he doesn't know her history there. Suggesting Charles seems like going to far when he hardly knows what their relationship is like, though he feels like he's probably the closest thing she has to family. And he can't offer himself, because he's not. He's not Abel or Charles. He's just Garry.
So he doesn't try saying anything and risking making her pain worse. Instead, he quietly turns toward her more in his seat, moving his hand from her shoulder to rest over one of hers at her side and pulling her towards him a little in a half-embrace. From this angle, it's hard to do it properly. He inclines his head, speaking softly. ] Come here... Don't say that. It's too sad...
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No, it's— I just can't have something like that. No matter how much I try, no matter what, it doesn't work. Because I'm not... I'm not the one that was ever meant to be loved, so that's it, right? Sister was the one that let me out, but she hated me ever since that day. I don't think Amshel ever loved me at all, but I never, I couldn't be alone. I couldn't have lived without him, and I shouldn't have...
[ She shakes her head, curling in on herself more, still trying valiantly not to lose it even though she's trembling. But whatever she was going to say about what she shouldn't have done seems forgotten as she continues. ]
And every Chevalier was the same as the last one, you know. They were terrible, awful things, but as long as we could pretend, as long as I could pretend that we loved each other, that was alright. I could pretend. But I wouldn't have had to, not with my daughters. My beautiful daughters would have loved me, because I was their mother. But if my daughters got to live, then their mother would have to die, because Saya would never let them live without killing me, since I was the one she hated so much. I could die alone, and that would be it. That's fine, I thought.
So...Why? I hate that man, because I was done. I didn't have to try anymore, but I'm stupid... Why did I expect anything to be different, do you know? I should have never believed him. No one could be a father to me. No one could really just let me go with them and start over. I was never supposed to be the one that was loved.
[ It's a quiet anger, not vicious like the one she had shown Ciel and Charles. But it's the breaking point, so she chokes out a sob, almost folded over on herself by now. Hearing that raw, emotional story is something that few ever get the chance to hear from Diva, but it highlights the very sad, central point of her tragedy. For all the violence and pain, both suffered and inflicted, at the heart of everything, Diva was just a girl that wanted to be loved above all else, because it was something she'd never been given. Not until she met Abel. ]
No matter what I do, I just can't have it...
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the shippiest non-ship to never sail: the thread
A LOVE THAT SHALL NEVER BE
only in musebox land
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and then diva moved in no i'm kidding
garry will wake up one day with his room full of fancy vases and charles...